What am I doing today? Well, I'm working at a different office for one thing, which has made my day so much better already. I will be here a mere 9 days, then back to hell, but I'm going to enjoy it while it lasts.
Yes, I still hate the job. Actually, after being here, I think its not the job that I hate so much as who I have to work with and the environment I'm in.
This office is totally different. Smaller, yes, but more people in general relying on me to do things for them because I'm the only admin here.
The people here are nice and the head guy is not scary like the one I deal with. But the best part? THERES NO JANE!!!!!!!!!!!!
So this makes me think that the real problem here is working with her. Well, and the one bitch Engineer that I have to deal with too, but Jane is the real issue.
I wish I could say I that I think its going to get better with her, but I just don't. Hells Bells its been a year and Ive gone so far down hill its unreal, and I blame her.
No really, I do. I came into this job with hope and drive and a great attitude, only to be met with her BS, which while "helpful" on the surface, is totally self serving. Shes a bitch. Bottom line.
I haven't seen anything else in the rags that Id even dare apply for either...well accept one job, which I did apply for but never heard anything. Understandable when there are probably 2000 other people applying for the same thing.
Honestly I just don't know what to do to change my situation. I'm trying to take more photos, and have spent an insane amount of money recently on new equipment, but I don't know where to go from here really.
40 Looms in the near future and I find myself again trying to make it work here, if for no other reason just because Ive got no where else to go.
I heard a saying yesterday, and its not a quote, but in general the message was this: If your having a hard time with something, you can either let it make you bitter, or become BETTER. That really hit home with me because I have been just that in the last few months. BITTER!
I want to be better. I want to get past all this and just make the best of a less than ideal situation. I pray every night for the strength to do just that and I feel a little better these days, but not so much that Id say I'm happy with my situation.
Ive got 9 days to enjoy the break from the evil Jane, but then I will be right back where I was again. Under her tiny yet powerfully obnoxious thumb.
I don't want to turn 40 feeling bad, so I'm going to make every effort in the next 30 days to try and make myself feel great.
We'll see.
