The Road to Hell

I was looking at my calender in the weight room this morning. The usual routine ya know. Get up, let out the pup to do her business, do MY business, then face the scale.
**sigh****
Back to that 2 pound area again.

I would like very much to cuss now please.....

MUTHER F*%^!#R!!!!!!!!!!!!

Of course, calmly, reasonably,(if not bitterly), I recognize this is completely my own doing..or undoing as it were.
The board this morning said it all. A bunch of blank spaces where there should be work out updates.

****sigh...again******

OK so last week I do have an excuse. My power was out for 2 days...no really, it was!
Then on the 4th day I was , well, tired from not sleeping in the sweat box Id been forced to endure from the power outage ( you think Id have lost a few pounds from that alone!)
so I went to bed super early without doing anything.

Then Friday came and I went out after work. Stress full week and I was in need of libations.
Saturday I got up early to go car shopping...and bought one by the way...
Saturday night I had people over, one of which stayed up with me until 6AM Sunday so needless to say Sunday was a total wash out as well.

So this week..*gulp*..no excuses.

Monday I usually always crap out. Tuesday, yesterday, I went out. I'm feeling depressed and most of the time when that happens I turn to going out instead of the healthy route, which any idiot, including ME, knows is the worst thing you can do.

OK so I'm alright today. A little tired, and I FEEL that my body NEEDS to sweat.
I can always tell when Ive been over doing things in the party department because I get what I like to refer to as the flop sweats.
I'm in the office, not wearing the usual heat stroke inducing girdle, and I go to clean up the office a bit.

Oh...My..GAWD!! I'm sweating like whore in church!!

Yeah, when I begin to sweat like this its my body SCREAMING at me to cleanse it. So my goal is to go home and do just that.
We'll see what happens. What was it they say about the road to hell being paved with good intentions?

yeah...its getting hot in here....

Icky Factor

Well I haven't done anything still.
I spent the remainder of the week last week..and weekend..being bad.

I plan on doing treadmill today but truthfully I'm so uninspired and unmotivated.
The switch is off for some reason.

Frustrated with myself.

Blah!

A month from today we will be heading for the beach. Our yearly trip. looking back at last year at this time I was motivated. Going to the gym and trying to do the right thing. All temporary of course because though Ive gone up and down over the past year I pretty much weight exactly the same as I did this time last year. Oh the 20 lbs I lost is for real...see I gained that much between vacation time and the new year. After I came back from vacation I just kind of gave up for a while.

Oh hell, lets face it, Ive never been ON IT except for that one time years ago when I really did it.
Who cares if it was unhealthy. I still did it.
Id give anything to have that inner voice pushing me again. Willing me to work out like crazy and stay away from all those foods that I really should never tough again.

It was like a big tease, and now I just look back on it and cry.

This is a bad day.

Bad to the Bone

OK so this week is not going so well.
No work out Monday, and last night I went out and have Mexican and Margaritas...pure fat and sugar fest!!
I did still lose ONE lb this morning though.
So today's the day. WORK THE FLAB OUT!

Monday Monday

I'm always so tired on Monday!
I overslept this morning and came in to work late. Its OK. Fortunately my job is very relaxed on these things.

So Saturday morning I got on the scale and had dropped 2 lbs under the magic wall number!!

Of course today I'm back up to plus 5 OVER the number....Mondays suck.

If the week goes like last week did, however, I'll be back down by Wednesday and pushing through the wall.

I have so much weight to lose, but right now I'm focusing on this 10 lb area. I keep thinking if I can...sorry...WHEN I can get down 10 lbs under this wall number I will have broken a barrier and be on my way again.

I did work out Sunday, which ended my week with 4 days of work outs. Not too bad.
I also behaved myself all week, and felt fabulous for it!!

I'm tired today but I am going to try to MAKE myself get on the treadmill for just a little bit tonight. I need to sweat, and I'm excited to see the numbers on the scale drop again.

Good weekend all in all.

Ups and Downs

Ok well, it seems my 7 lb gain was only 1 lb. YAY!! AND WHOO HOO!!

I weighed myself the next day ( like usual) and I was down 6 lbs. Yesterday I was again down 6 lbs so I officially gained 1 lb over the holiday weekend. Ok so I gained a pound...better than 7!!!

Ive been back on track this week too. Although I didn't work out Monday, (even after my severe declaration that I was going to ) I have done the treadmill 2 days in a row now and will be on it today as well.
My goal, again,......wait..I say AGAIN!!!!.....is to behave Monday - Thursday and work out Tuesday - Friday and one weekend day..or both.
So this week I'm gaining on my goal.

Also, again....wait..I SAY AGAIN!!!...I'm 2 lbs away from the magic number.

I wonder if I can sweat off 2 lbs today...

Goal reminders...
Healthy lifestyle
career
romantic love

Weekend update

For the millionth time it seems , I was 1 pound away from breaking my barrier last Thursday, July 3rd.
I actually was able to again move the big bar down a notch on the scale. I think that happened about this time last year too, although then I was working out regularly and this year I haven't been ...not recently anyway.

I was excited, elated, pumped!!!
I decided that I would not destroy this over the holiday weekend. I was going to work out daily and watch what I ate carefully.

Needless to say, 4 days later I'm 7 lbs heavier. Nuff said.

So I'm back on the train again as of today. My foot has finally healed enough to get into a tennis shoe again so there really is no excuse. I was pissed this morning when I got on the scale, but not surprised. Well, 7 lbs in 3 days..maybe a little surprised.

I'm going to MAKE myself get on the mill after work. I know I will feel better when I do. I ALWAYS feel better after working out.

This weekend was also a banner one in that for the first time in years I actually did nothing for the 4th.
I sat at home, watched movies and went to bed. Granted I was feeling very ill all day for some reason, which I never did figure out, but still.
Oh I had invitations, and phone calls from the peeps asking where I was. I just honestly was not feeling social. The only social thing I did all weekend was a pool day Saturday with a few friends.
Oh, wait, Thursday night the boys came over and we hung out then too. OK so I was a little social, and that might be why I was ill Friday..maybe...

I just didn't do anything on the 4th itself. Oh well. Theres always next year.

I had a good weekend though anyway. I basically did exactly what I wanted to do except I didn't work out, which I did want to do.
Excuses aside, I felt bad Friday, Saturday I was out the door by 9:30 AM, and Sunday I cleaned the house most of the day. Ok so Sunday I did have time. I just didn't do it.

Grrrrr! I get so mad at myself for being so lazy!!

Ok ok so just get it together. Today I MUST work out.

Dead in the Water

Havent done crap.