The weekend brought weird things.
I finally confessed to The Lovely Wife that a year before they met I had been with The Muffin.
She took it better than I imagined at the time. Now I'm not so sure.
the Muffin came into my office this morning and told me he was going to be calling me this afternoon.
My heart breaks for this because I know whats about to happen. I could see it in his face.
Not anger, not even bitterness. More like a finality.
I'm going to be asked not to be in their life anymore.
I wanted to be friends with BOTH of them until I was old and crusty! I wanted to see their kids grow up! I wanted to hopefully one day have a man of my own that Muffin could be friends with and we would all hang out together!
I don't know what possessed me to reveal this long kept secret, but its out there now.
A part of me is relieved but another is already mourning the loss of 2 people that are very important to me.
I suppose in the long run its better this way, it just hurts a lot right now.
Monday, December 8, 2008
Friday, December 5, 2008
Milestone
Well, tomorrow when I get on the treadmill...WHICH I WILL DO!!!....I will have reached a milestone that I haven't gotten to in years. 4 weeks in a row of working out consistently!
Out of the 4 I have 2 weeks with 4 days and as of tomorrow I will have 2 weeks with 5 days.
I'M SO PROUD OF MYSELF!!!!!!!!!!
I feel it inside me. Maybe this time wont be like the last in time in that I wont lose the weight so fast, but I think that's OK.
Its already different in the fact that I'm doing it for ME. Its also different because I'm motivating myself and staying on the path during the week despite the temptation of my friends wanting to go out.
Weekends are my downfall at this point, but that being said, I'm still happy with my month. I really believe that getting the exercise down as a strict pattern is the most important step for me right now. During this next month I'm going to be going to parties and drinking and eating unusual things so I don't really expect to lose a bunch of weight, BUT, I do expect myself to keep up the exercise, and 4 weeks from today, when I'm writing again and can say Ive worked out consistently for TWO months, I will be beaming with pride!!!
GO ME!!!
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Out of the 4 I have 2 weeks with 4 days and as of tomorrow I will have 2 weeks with 5 days.
I'M SO PROUD OF MYSELF!!!!!!!!!!
I feel it inside me. Maybe this time wont be like the last in time in that I wont lose the weight so fast, but I think that's OK.
Its already different in the fact that I'm doing it for ME. Its also different because I'm motivating myself and staying on the path during the week despite the temptation of my friends wanting to go out.
Weekends are my downfall at this point, but that being said, I'm still happy with my month. I really believe that getting the exercise down as a strict pattern is the most important step for me right now. During this next month I'm going to be going to parties and drinking and eating unusual things so I don't really expect to lose a bunch of weight, BUT, I do expect myself to keep up the exercise, and 4 weeks from today, when I'm writing again and can say Ive worked out consistently for TWO months, I will be beaming with pride!!!
GO ME!!!
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Tuesday, December 2, 2008
Post -Feast
Thanksgiving is such a great family time every year, its hard to fault the day for being such a temptation of goodies.
I guess if one has enough self control that wouldn't be a problem, but mine is not so great yet. Besides being off for 4 days in a row, which always induces situations of heavy partying, there was football game day and the going out.
All in all I didn't do so hot eating and drinking wise, but I expected that to be the case. I did, however, work out 4 days last week. The 5th day fell by the wayside on Friday due to my massive hangover and general icky feeling post- Thanksgiving pig fest.
Actually, in hind site, Thanksgiving day itself was not so bad. I really didn't over eat at all. I think the drinking was part of the blame for the weight gain, but again,I expected that to happen as it does every weekend.
So on the scale today I'm up a few pounds from my lowest again, but I haven't given up the ghost.
I'm trying to get through the holidays festivities and all with at least working out.
I might gain or lose the same 10 lbs all December long but as long as I can manage the work out..to establish a pattern..I'll feel good about myself and go on.
I guess if one has enough self control that wouldn't be a problem, but mine is not so great yet. Besides being off for 4 days in a row, which always induces situations of heavy partying, there was football game day and the going out.
All in all I didn't do so hot eating and drinking wise, but I expected that to be the case. I did, however, work out 4 days last week. The 5th day fell by the wayside on Friday due to my massive hangover and general icky feeling post- Thanksgiving pig fest.
Actually, in hind site, Thanksgiving day itself was not so bad. I really didn't over eat at all. I think the drinking was part of the blame for the weight gain, but again,I expected that to happen as it does every weekend.
So on the scale today I'm up a few pounds from my lowest again, but I haven't given up the ghost.
I'm trying to get through the holidays festivities and all with at least working out.
I might gain or lose the same 10 lbs all December long but as long as I can manage the work out..to establish a pattern..I'll feel good about myself and go on.
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