Every year I write about the horrors of the past year and the goals of the new one. Thankfully I dont have a lot of horrible to post about, and I think instead of writing about the goals that are always the same, I'll stay in the present and just get around the days as they come.
Its the official start of making the changes...again. This time I'm including my mom, and Ray. We all have to do our part in helping each other get healthy so for my part, I am striving to stay in a positive head space, and also helping out mom with starting a food diary and a regular exercise routine. Something I need to do for myself as well, but that will be easier to do in this house with another person. We eat what I buy and cook so that part is on me. I did ask her to please stop buying thing that are tempting to me, but for this week or so, instead of food restrictions, we are working with Accountability and Routine. I also am not trying for "dry January" as I know my mental block of restrictions just make me want things worse so I'll say a "moist January" instead. Meaning a pretty decent cut back on the number of days of consumption and amount of consumption.
Accountability: Just that. Be accountable for what you eat and drink. Document everything.
Routine: Get one!!
So today I am going to be getting an actual calendar started where I give myself daily tasks to do with work, exercise, and education. The goal being to make myself have a regular day like I used to have as in get up at 7, do the exercise, and set actual work hours where goals are expected to be met.
Part of my routine will be keeping a gratefulness diary, which naturally I will put in here.
Today I am grateful for having this new positive mindset.
I am grateful that mom is on board with our new "routine"
I am grateful that my body seems to be in good enough shape to exercise without pain.
I am grateful that I have support from so many directions.
Ray is having a bad start to the year, waking up to more trouble with a family car, and I think he's really worried about money. I have offered mental support, which is the only thing I can really do. I know he has been depressed recently, and we talked about him going back to therapy with a new person. He is on board, so I will gently encourage that as well.
No matter what is going on with him, I have to remind myself- "Put the oxygen mask on yourself first!"
So that's what I'm doing. I'm off to exercise. I'm not creating lofty goals. For now, just walking into the gym and getting on the elliptical for 20-30 minutes is enough for me. If I do more, great. I will also not wait for Ray to join me. That's a battle I cant fight for him. He will get there, I just think he's going through a rough spot at the moment. Hopefully tomorrow will be better for him.
Until then!
