I wrote the post below last night but just got it up today.
My January plans went south quickly after hurting myself by overdoing it too soon working out, then getting sick.
I just flopped right back into my old habits.
I've been so upset with myself recently for this. Trying to get Ray to go to the gym with me to help me go has failed. Hes just not going to do it so after I had a meltdown on Monday night on the phone with him, I decided to do something about it.
Read on...
I
went to the Wellness Center today. I finally had had enough of making excuses
as to why I “can’t “ get myself under control.
The
wellness center has twice before helped me save my life, which is why when I
walked in there this afternoon for the first time sine February of 2015, it
felt like I’d never stopped going.
Probably
shouldn’t have, but I can’t change a minute of the past, I can only change my
future.
I’ll
take it a day at a time and I know I will get back to that place of feeling
good again.
Ironically
it’s 3 or so months before I’ll hopefully be leaving Decatur forever, but the
goal is to get back into the habit, and along the way go ahead and get familiar
with the hospital gym in Marietta.
I
hope it’s similar but one way or another this MUST be back in my life again.
I’ll keep my elliptical at home for the couple of odd days that I won’t be
going to the gym, and I’m not thinking about weight loss as much as getting
back to the person INSIDE that I know I can be. I was once, so she’s in there.
who
is that person?
She’s
the Rebecca that IS a person that makes working out a priority, and IS a person
that sincerely makes an effort to treat their body better inside and out.
She
..I...AM that person. I’ve just been letting the other person...GeminiTwin
haha...drive the bus for far too long.
Praying
to have strength every day and not to give up.
My
goals are not unreasonable, but they are strict.
One
change is necessary to help the next.
Go
to bed earlier EVERY night!
No
weekday wine!
Get
up, get dressed, have a cup of tea then get my soon to be well toned ass to
they gym!
Avocado
toast is now for the weekends. As it should be.
I’m
happy today. I want to make these statements a reality.
I am
the only person in charge of how my life turns out.
Do
better, get better.
So that was Tuesday, and here the next day, I went again this morning, and it really was like coming home again.
